I've been a little down for the past few days.
1. One of my oldest and closest friends has been diagnosed with cancer. Then one day on the way home I listened to a southern gospel CD and heard songs about Heaven. I know he'll be ok.
2. Someone told me that I seem like a "desperate single guy". They're right, and that depressed me. It depressed me because I don't seem to know how to act around women so I come across that way. There's some freak on TV that wears earrings and I guess what you'd call a chin stud. He wears goofy looking hats, has long hair and calls himself Mystery. He teaches men how to act around women. He's wrong. I say that because he'd refer to women as "targets". Ladies is that how you want to be thought of? I didn't think so.
What's this to do with me, I'm not to sure to whom to look as a mentor. Well let me take that back. Pastor Michael "Moose" Morris once said that if ANYONE hurts his wife, he'll kill them. This is a man that treats his wife---Miss Cyndi--like a very presious lady. I'm not saying I have to go beat some other guy up, or slay some dragon or tilt at some windmill to impress a lady, just know that when I find her, treat her well.
3. I'm currently unemployed. In 2007 the company I used to work for was bought out. They told us this would not effect our jobs. I even hoped for a raise or something. Then one day they told us that we'd be laid off in May 2008. I've not found a job yet.
Ok so what does all of this mean today? My favorite Bible verse is Psalm 139:14.
I am fearfully and wonderfully made; I know that full well. This tells me that God made me and He will take care of me.
So....I'll find a job; and I'll find something wherein there is a Roger-shaped and sized hole that only I can fill.
On the frontline of me finding someone special: The lady that said that I was "desperate" was absolutely right and
I DO NOT hold it against her. She is right and she has in a roundabout way been very helpful to me.
Let me explain: In the book
Tom Sawyer, Tom tries to impress Becky Thathcher [the skank] by doing handstands and other tricks. Of course Tom was what? 10 or 11? I'm pushing 40 [8 weeks away as of this writing] and I am doing the same thing. Instead of handstands, I'm trying to impress with the fact that I work with kids or with self-depreciating humor. Yep, nothing turns on the ladies like a guy who's all the confidence of a Woody Alen character.
Ok that said please pray that I'll overcome this flaw and that I'll also find a job.